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I believe that lots of you have read Harry Potter and I’m sure that you must have known Dementor. But if you don’t know, let me tell you.
  
"Dementors are among the foulest creatures that walk this earth. They infest the darkest, filthiest places, they glory in decay and despair, they drain peace, hope, and happiness out of the air around them... Get too near a Dementor and every good feeling, every happy memory will be sucked out of you. If it can, the Dementor will feed on you long enough to reduce you to something like itself...soul-less and evil. You will be left with nothing but the worst experiences of your life." 
—Remus Lupin to Harry Potter

So a Dementor is a Dark creature, considered one of the foulest that inhabit the world. Dementors feed off human happiness, and thus cause depression and despair to any who are in close proximity to them.
To defend against dementor, the only way is by spelling Patronus charm.

"A Patronus is a kind of positive force, and for the wizard who can conjure one, it works something like a shield, with the Dementor feeding on it, rather than him. In order for it to work, you need to think of a memory. Not just any memory, a very happy memory, a very powerful memory… Allow it to fill you up…lose yourself in it…then speak the incantation ‘Expecto Patronum’." 
—Remus Lupin teaching Harry Potter the Patronus Charm

Patronus Charm spell is one way to defend against Dementors and certain other Dark creatures. The spell requires the use of a wand, concentration on a powerfully happy memory, and the incantation "Expecto Patronum".

Sadness againts by happy memories.  It is a great concept, isn’t it?

Well, actually these last few days I feel that so many dementors around me. It means, my mind was full of negative thinking which make desperate, feeling down, and so on. I want to kick them out of my mind, so I need the Patronus charm. Eventhough I don’t have any magic wand, at least I have some happy memories in my mind.

So here are my Patronus Charms.

1. Remembering when the first time I knew him. Spending our time just for sending SMS. Inviting him to come at Magetan, meeting him for the first time at Magetan, spending time together at Sarangan, first sensation missing him when he went home and leaving me alone at Magetan.
2. Remembering when at last having relationship with him. Sitting together at alun2 Mojokerto, drinking coffee together, talking, and finally accepting him as a part of my life.
3. Going together with him, spending our time together, just walking around at UNESA, watching movie, having breakfast, lunch, or even dinner, holding hand each other, sharing with him, listening him singing for me and so on.
4. Remembering when he proposed me. Making me sure that he will marry me as soon as possible.
5. The smiling of my students when they meet me every Saturday. Talking with them, making them calm down, trying to be the best for them and so on
6. Teddy bear from my students.
7. Writing RPP (Rencana Pelaksanaan Pembelajaran) and knowing that it have done well.
8. Making media.
9. Making reward such as sticker.
10. Being together with my students.
11. Having the most patient mother.
12. Having a lot of love from my family.
13. Being together with all of my friends. Novi, Breta, Breta’s Husband, Cula, Echa, Echi, Rida, Kiki, Mbak Depe, Mbak Reni, Wachidun, Dewi, A-1 class, IPS2 class, friends in the kostBunga Icha, Uut, Kiki, and others. Having a lot of memories with them makes me never feel alone.
14. Remembering Dave and Calvin, my first student. Remembering our time together, the smiling of them, and all of memories with them.
15. And the biggest patronus in my life, remembering about Allah, knowing Allah will always beside me to protect me, help me, and never leave me alone.

At least I realize that in my life I ever feel happy, not forever in sadness. Life is a kind of turning wheel, sometimes at the top and sometimes at the bottom. By remembering all of those happy memories I hope I can past the hardest thing in my life.

Although without a magic wand, I will shout Expecto Patronum loudly in my heart.
Never surrender.